The candy is half-price the flowers are wilting, and in my inbox some sweet folks are a-jilting. My manuscript’s growing, my brain needs a break, so time for some letters about hope and heartbreak.
This email came this morning with “NO RELATIONSHIP!!!” as the subject line. I’m calling it #1394 for record-keeping purposes.
#1394: NO RELATIONSHIP!!!
I MET A GUY ON A DESTINATION WEDDING AND HE LIVES IN LONDON.SO WHEN I CAME BACK TO MY HOME I COULD NOT STOP THINKING ABOUT HIM I FOUND HIS INSTAGRAM AND SENDED HIM A REQUEST. I PROBABLY THINK HE MUST HAVE SEEN IT AND HAS NOT RESPONDED. I KNOW THIS WILL NOT LEAD TO ANYTHING BUT I WANTED TO TRY.I HAVE NOT TOLD ANYONE ABOUT THIS.I TALKED TO HIM TWICE/THRICE AND DO NOT KNOW WHAT TO DO…
I SENDED HIM A REQUEST AGAIN THINKING HE MIGHT NOT HAVE SEEN HIM. I WAS ATTRACTED TO HIM AT FIRST SIGHT PROBABLY BECAUSE HE IS NOT THE ETHNIC TYPE OF GUYS I MEET EVERYDAY. HE MIGHT BE A LITTLE OLDER BUT I DON’T CARE. YOU WILL MAYBE SUGGEST TO LEAVE IT BUT HE IS IN MY MIND AND I CAN’T STOP MAKING FAKE SCENARIOS IN MY HEAD. HE EVEN DID A LITTLE TEASING AND COMPLIMENTS.HE HASN’T RESPONDED YET …PLZ TELL ME WHAT TO DO OR THINK
RESPOND QUICK OR I WILL EAT UP MY MIND
ANYWAY I ALSO THINK A LOT OF IT IS BECAUSE I AM LONELY BUT I don’t know …
HELLO,
I AM GLAD YOU HAD FUN AT THE WEDDING. IT SOUNDS LIKE YOU HAD A NICE FLIRTATION WITH A HANDSOME GUEST AND THAT IS ALWAYS NICE.
PLEASE DO NOT EAT UP YOUR MIND! PLEASE DO NOT SAY THAT THING ABOUT “ETHNIC GUYS” ANYMORE IT MAKES YOU SOUND KINDA RACIST. JUST SAY YOU THOUGHT HE WAS HANDSOME, COOL, HOT, NICE, FUN, ETC.
I WILL STOP YELLING NOW IF YOU WILL.
You are right, I am going to suggest that you leave it, no maybes about it. You did nothing wrong by reaching out on social media to someone you met at a party, it was brave and cool of you to shoot your shot, but it is time to assume that he got your friend/follow requests and will respond to them or not in his own sweet time. (I don’t use Insta so I do not know the lingo, forgive me.) I think you should stop sending any more requests, stop looking for other avenues of contact, stop haunting his public feed, and leave him be until or unless he contacts you.
If he does eventually accept your ping, I suggest not reading too much into it, and I suggest not writing terrible yet catchy pop songs in his DMs.* Hitting the “accept” button doesn’t mean he feels the same way or has been thinking about you too, it means “Oh, hello, it was nice meeting you.” He has ways to let you know if he’s into you, you won’t have to nudge him into it.
The way you are feeling, like you have an overwhelming crush and can’t stop thinking about him, might be something called limerence. Limerence is not always always romantic, people get “be my friend!” limerence and fannish limerence about entertainers and strong attachments to coworkers or bosses or teachers.
Limerence doesn’t mean your feelings aren’t real or that you shouldn’t have them. What makes it limerence and not just “love” or “attraction” is that the feelings are distracting, sometimes to the point of being painful, and the intensity is out of proportion to the situation or degree of reciprocity from the other person. In other words, even if the limerence is inspired by someone who likes you just fine, they aren’t obsessed with you the same way, and they aren’t behaving with the same kind of intensity and focus. The big mistake people make when they’re in limerence’s grip is thinking that the intensity of their feelings is meaningful in a way that obligates other people. It’s like those old stories about being “struck by Cupid’s arrow,” you assume that this arrow sticking out of your back is visible to everyone, and it must have been put there for a reason.
When it happens to me (and it has happened to me) it’s usually a sign that something else about the person or the situation is lighting me up. I like learning, I like thinking, and I like making art, so when I meet someone in the context of doing those things, and the learning/thinking/art-making clicks into place, like here is stuff I never thought about or understood before, or here is the best I’ve ever been at making art, I want to crawl into those a-ha! moments and never come out. And that person feels like the source of the magical feeling, even if the magic is mostly in me.
So maybe think about the context you met this guy in. You were away from home and all your usual routines, in a new place, probably a beautiful place, surrounded by nifty people who were having a great time. You were all dressed up, you looked amazing, you felt amazing, and you noticed someone who also noticed you, and when you got closer, he wasn’t just nice to look at, he could also keep up with you and make jokes. Is that because this man is your destiny? Who knows? Probably not. Is how good you felt, and are still feeling, maybe a giant flashing sign that you need more of that place, more vacation in general, more of that color you wore that brings out your eyes, more parties, more reasons to dress up, more flirting, more motivation to seek out places and experiences outside of your usual haunts? It would be easy to find out, since you can go after more of those things whether or not this one gentleman ever gets back to you.
[*If you would like two more TikTok songs that make me bark-laugh every time I think of them, they are: 1) Linger, by the Cranberries, except it’s about a little worm and 2) Jack and Diane, but all the lyrics are “sucking on a chili dog.” The Internet can be a dark place, but truly we live in a glorious time when so many beautiful weirdos can delight other weirdos.]
Let’s move on.
#1395: I asked someone out and it didn’t go well. Should I have been more confident?
Dear Captain Awkward,
In this scenario. Keep in mind I have spoken to her when we would go out at night for dinners with a group of friends but we were not that close but we spoke when we could. Though I believe to have caught some feelings for this woman. I approached her as she was still working and I had a small talk at first to see how she was doing then asked if she would be free sometime this week to eat which she then checked her current roster and responded with “I’ll see if my sister is free this day” then I replied with “ok” and walked off.
But that was not the response I was hoping for because I Initially just wanted it to be me and her to which I made it more clearer that I just wanted to be me and her.
This has been on my mind for a few months but I was afraid to ask because I was never sure if she was already seeing someone. As I stared blankly in front of her thinking, she stared at me to which I replied “I’m thinking” then she responded “what are you thinking about?” That’s when I asked if she would be down to go and eat with me and just her. Which she then responded “I’m seeing someone.” I of course respectfully accepted it and didn’t know how to really feel but awkward. But I did feel a bit sad but I thought I’d take the chance which did not turn out the best lol. But I still said I am still down to go eat with you guys (her and the sister) to which she replied “Ok.”
I am sure she is seeing someone, but just your opinion from this would I have needed to be more confident if so how would I approach this better? (I do hope that scenario makes sense I am not the best at story-telling)
Hello, your story made sense to me, or, at least here is how I am reading it:
There is a lady you know from a friend group and see sometimes where she works (or maybe where both of you work, but she definitely works there). You asked her to dinner, and she said yes, but also that she would invite her sister. Either she didn’t register that you were asking her on a date, or she did, and wanted to fend that off as a possibility by including her sister. You were like, cool, but then you thought more about it and were like, not cool actually, so you went back to clarify that you would like to take her on a DATE-date, just the two of you. So she told you no, because she is seeing someone. And your question is, would this have gone differently if you’d been more confident?
I think it would have gone differently if she liked you that way and wanted to go on a date with you. If you’d been more confident somehow, you would have have gotten the same answer, because she doesn’t. If you’d been less confident, and she was really into you, she would have said yes. Her feelings are the deciding factor, not your skills.
I think you did just fine, and I think it turned out just fine. You asked, she answered, you clarified, she answered again, and now you know. Nobody is mad, nothing is broken, she just doesn’t like you that way.
But we’re here, so let’s talk about what “more confident” even means. What would more confident look like for you?
There is a whole industry that wants to teach people, especially men [You supplied no pronouns, but I feel about 99% sure in this assumption, please correct me if I’m wrong], that being confident about dating is the most important and attractive thing you can be, and that confidence in dating comes from the wording, the timing, the strategy, and swagger of the approach, like, “Buy ‘Swain, Swoon, Swive! Gaston’s Guaranteed Gambits For Winning The Heart Of That Weird Girl In Your Town, by Gaston, just $39.99!” Sing with me:
NO ONE FLIRTS LIKE GASTON
NO ONE BLURTS LIKE GASTON
NO ONE’S MUSCLES POP OUT OF HIS SHIRTS LIKE GASTON
HE’S SO SMOOTH THAT IT’S KINDA IN-TIM-I-DATING
HIS EGO’S SO SWOLE IT RESISTS DE-FLATING
But whether it’s innate or store-bought, all the confidence in the world does not cancel out that an entire other human being might be just as confident about saying “Oh, thank you so much, but no.” As a woman who has mostly dated men, when I think of people I met who were especially confident in a sexy way, it mostly boils down to three things:
1. They were forthright and specific. “I would like to take you on a date, will you go to dinner with me next week?” I didn’t have to guess what they wanted. They didn’t pressure me. They asked me a yes or no question.
2. They made it safe to say “no.” And I wish I didn’t mean “safe” quite so literally, but also they didn’t make me feel weird about it, because they could handle rejection. They didn’t treat me differently or expect me take to care of their feelings of rejection after I said it. “No worries! I had to ask. Anyway, watching anything good lately?” They took me at my word, and didn’t keep pushing me to change my mind, so we could run into each other in the future without lingering awkwardness. In other words, they were confident enough to put the ball in my court, and leave it there.
3. They liked women, not just the ones they wanted to sleep with. No “you’re not like other girls” shit. No treating women who they considered too old or otherwise outside their criteria for what kind of girlfriend they wanted like NPCs. No transactional “nice guy” friendships. If we didn’t date or hook up, I was still a person they liked, not a failed investment in niceness that hadn’t paid sex dividends in a timely manner.
Next time you ask someone out, you could be more specific and clear the first time. You might feel more confident, you might appear more confident, and you’re more likely to get a clear answer right away, so immediately there’s less anxiety and stewing — for everybody–about what it all means.
But the only way you’re getting a different answer is if a) you ask someone else the question b) that someone else wants to go on a date.
The way to display confidence with this particular lady is to accept that she said no and stop asking. Keep being as friendly, chill, polite, and affable as you’ve always been when you run into each other. Assume that if she changes her mind at any point, she will let you know. (People do not forget who asked them on dates, so assume that she neither needs nor want reminders.) More confidence in the asking won’t make her go out with you, but a lack of confidence in the accepting could make her not want to go anywhere near you. You’ve done great so far, and I’m confident that you’ll be cool and not mess this part up.
P.S. Also, hey, before we go, psssst, what’s the deal with the sister? Is she single? Is she cute? Is your crush calling in an emergency chaperone or is she trying to pull off a successful foist*? I wouldn’t assume anything about it, and sister stuff can get weird, so if you follow through with that dinner, assume that everybody’s just being friendly until someone tells you, out loud, in words, that they’re not. Just, the other thing about my list about Confident-Yet-Unswived-People is that those were the people that I felt confident about inviting to parties and introducing to other people I knew, because I knew that they could hang and wouldn’t do anything creepy. Since you share a friend group, there are worse reputations than “Guy who will ask you on a date and then be totally chill about it afterward.”
*“Feint, Foist, Feast! What To Do When She’s Not The One For You But Her Buddy Might Like Ya” coming soon from Gaston, author of Swain, Swoon, Swive. $39.99 plus shipping and handling, bulk discounts may be available.
Two down, one to go:
#1396: “Well, I *did* have a crush.”
Dear Captain Awkward,
I am a teenager and my crush told everyone in class that I like him. Basically people are avoiding me these days.And it is just the start of my journey in this new school. What can I do to make more friends? Should I just pretend nothing happened?
BUDDY!!!!! MY CAPSLOCK KEY GOT SWITCHED ON AGAIN BUT IT’S OKAY BECAUSE I WANT YOU TO FEEL HOW MUCH I AM HUGGING YOU WITH MY MIND RIGHT NOW! ALSO GASTON IS HERE AND HE SAYS SOMETIMES IT GOES LIKE THAT, IS THERE ANYTHING NEARBY YOU COULD PUNCH, OR WRESTLE, OR QUAFF AN ENTIRE FLAGON OF IN ONE GULP, THAT ALWAYS MAKES GASTON FEEL BETTER.
Buddy. This sucks. I am so sorry this happened to you. I wish I could promise things at this school will never be as embarrassing as they are right now, but I’m not gonna brightside* ya.
I am going to tell you that if your crush was mocking you for the crime of…liking him…he might be kind of a bully. If his mocking was enough to send your classmates scattering away from you in all directions, is it that he’s so popular that everyone is on his side, or is it that they’re relieved it was your turn to get bullied this time, and they’re fleeing the danger zone? As things settle down – and things will settle down, if there’s one thing school does provide, it’s a steady supply of embarrassment theater, you may be the hot newcomer to watch, but the awkward years are all around you. Anyway, as things settle down, watch how your former crush treats other people, and look around for other people who do not like this person, at all. They may not become your friends, but they’re less likely to be enemies.
You could keep pretending nothing happened, but my other advice is for you to own it. Don’t bring it up, but if people keep harping on it, say “Yep, I did have a crush, I’m cured now.””Uh, why is this interesting?””Well, when you have a crush, let me know, I’ll bring popcorn, maybe you can win Most Excruciating Fifth Period next time.”
You didn’t do anything wrong! Adopt the attitude that you liked somebody, he didn’t like you back, so what, what the fuck is wrong with this school that that’s a major news event? “New kid likes boy, realizes he’s kind of a dick, study hall at eleven.” If you’re still in touch with good friends from your old school, this might be a good week to call them.
If the problem is that you still like him, I promise you it will pass. Focus on being nice to yourself, finding your feet, and if you need an outlet, pull up your favorite media about hot jerks who are insensitive and mean but their faces are so pretty and you can’t stop looking at their hot mean faces, knowing that you are part of an immense and thirsty club. ❤
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:music cue:
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:announcer voice becomes clear again:
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:more unclear rumbling and grunting in background, announcer voice is muffled but still audible:
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:recording trails off:
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